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That's how depression works. It makes you believe that you don't want all those things and that you will never have them anyway. It lies to you.
I don't like to be TOO happy because I know I'll just have to come down eventually and that's no fun.
In relationships, yes, Im too reluctant to allow myself to get "close" to anybody now. Ive learned from my mistakes.
I've fel that way about chasing after things I really want. I've felt that, oh, I'll never be able to get that award, or whatever.
by aya on Thu Apr 07, 05 2:07pm
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Whoa - great question, LCB. In the past, I've told my psychiatrist: "I'm sort of happy being unhappy." I think part of the reason for that is that my problems with severe depression have actually become part of my identity; and who wants to lose their identity? Regardless of the reasons, it's just part of who I am, and (to varying degrees) who I will be for the rest of my life. In a way, it causes me to appreciate the good things that life has to offer, since the contrast between the good and the bad is greater when your starting point is an abyss of pain and despair.
No. Being unhappy pisses me off.
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