would you : RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS *RANT AHEAD* [+] serious ballot by socal_sweetie ACTIVE Tue Mar 20, 07 - Mon Jun 18, 07 Ok i've had Rheumatoid Arthritis since i was 18, so bad at times that i can't lift my arm or bend my knees or even make a fist, seriously. When i get flare up's i can't so much as lift a gallon of milk and my friends understand and my mom even knows because she was there when i had flare ups as a young girl working at sunglass Hut and Dennys, she knows when it's bad i can't so much as roll up a window! I had to quit jobs because it's so bad! The problem? Now i have 3 kids and a husband and suddenly it's back again really bad. Anyone that knows Rheumatoid Arthritis (Not Osteoarthritis, it's way worse and usually only the elderly get that kind, BIG difference, mine is crippling as well) well now i can't do things i need to do, like even walk in the morning because in the morning it is worse, it's in my toe joints even so i limp, EVERY joint. My kids help me in the morning, they know, my kids KNOW and do anything they can to help me! It's so bad in the morning and usually gets better as the day progresses. Well my husband makes me feel like total shit about it...he seems to not believe me and he was yelling at me trying to force me to read about "poor circulation" on the net last night and i was already upset because (even though he says he didn't mean to) he hurt my feelings by saying "sitting on that computer all day probably" and "i think i have it in my knee, it was hurting today" (come on now, it's a disease not a leg cramp!) so he makes me feel worthless when in all actuality i tried my hardest to put together a litterbox we got by UPS that i couldn't put it all together because of my finger joints and cleaned house and pottytrained the kid and walked all the way to the school to bring chapstick to my kid ETC.) Making me feel like a worthless fat ass, like all i do is sit on here! He's the "great man" that works and i stay home with our mildly autistic 5 year old! Fact is, when he makes me feel worthless i just feel like dying inside and he always says i'm getting too defensive when he says "poor circulation" and it's not poor circulation, it's arthritis! When he's mad at me he says "i don't do anything around here" and i do as much as i can with this pain, and i do stuff all the time, i have a 5 year old, i don't watch tv, the typing on here actually heats up my hands warming my fingers and soothing the joints, people say they can't believe how clean our house is having 3 boys (besides the video games laying around and skateboards and stuff!) omg his mom even understands and comes over to do the DEEP scrubbing on stuff, so basically i just feel like blah...so just shoot me please. Can someone please tell him that Rheumatoid Arthritis isn't because of poor blood circulation? It's a freakin disease, yes excersize helps but come on now i'm healthy as a horse, i ride dirt bikes, we camp all weekend, i creak around in my joints forcing myself to be active, i deal with more pain than he could ever handle plus i have 3 boys! By the way, on his behalf, he does make up with me after making me feel like killing myself! He does amazing things. He buys me stuff and i do feel that he loves me. He just doesn't understand my pain. Does ANYONE else in the world have this bad of arthritis? I guess he has to see it to believe it. I'm ready to cut open my hand and show him the deterioration. ??????? Comment It's a joint disease, be more understanding? medicinal marijuana? Ballot #113211 : SEE RESULTS Comment: show your vote with comment?

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